heyas. din slp well ytd. cos i kept thinking abt my back, den my imagination ran wild. so i decided to see a doctor soon. hmms. today dance i performed very badly. i dono why i wasnt even confident tho i noe de steps. they told me i haf to believe in myself. its rrly hard to do so when u noe u are nt that good. i dont noe how to believe in myself anymore. deres smth wrong with me. where de heck is my confidence? my heart wasnt even into dancing today. my brain just seemed to wander abt. aight. i noe it sucked today, even de jumps.. i just anyhow. very bad attitude i noe, but its not gonna happen again. ive been thinking alot. and i guess i'll haf to somehow tell myself that i can do it, even when i dont think so. im angry with myself, cos its so not me. dis doesnt feel like me toking. hello? where is estella? did she get washed away by the tsunami too?
sorry for the depressing entry. as i said, im not me today. sorry. anyway, would like to thank qingpei for running with me. i enjoyed it, and the swings too =) dont haf to worry abt me okies. i will be fine after today. haha.
It doesn’t matter if
I win
Or the colour of my skin
Cause the race is all about
Believing in yourself
and i dream i can run like the wind and be strong. =)
