estella .

Friday, February 18, 2005

succks

i would like to say that im happy, contented and feel loved.

but im not.

To estella:

I HATE U. who do u think u are? giving people a sulky face, and losing ur temper easily. just who do u think u are?! i hate u seriously. cant u control that idiotic temper of yours?

im sorry to everyone. i really dont noe why im in such bad mood. i get irritated by every little thing. and its not even pms. i cant say anything but sorry for now.

hais. my dad just vents his anger on my brother and i, when he's unhappy. where's the justice in that? ytd, he blew up at my bro for no reason, and threw a chair. he called us all "useless". at that time, i rrly hated him. i couldnt even study properly. and den today, he just pretends like nth has happened. like everything was normal. how come he can just lose his temper, and den pretend like its alright? he's so wrong. nth is alright now. my bro may have forgiven him but i havent. yes, im useless. thats what i have concluded abt myself. thats what my relatives, aunts, uncles have concluded. and thats what my DAD has concluded too.

well, thank u. it has always been my brother u all liked. dont think i dont understand hokkien. im not a moron. how can u expect me to not be hurt when everyone compares me to someone else like that? this is probably the most depressing entry ive written. to qinpei, i love u. to qingpei, i love u too. dont worry abt me. i'll work things out on my own. i'll be okay after i cry=D yeap. dont have to worry kae? otherwise, i'll feel bad den i wont blog anymore.