estella .

Tuesday, April 19, 2005

mrs selva=D

I love mrs selva! she has made me gain interest in chemistry once more :)

i want to work hard hard from today onwards.
hopefully, i can get a1s for chi, eng, lit for O's.
and an a2 for sciences. maths, well.. i have nothing to say. lol.

i have random thoughts again. x)
dancers, i love u all.
4lone peeps, jiayou! mug hard for exams! ^^
my sec one class (1o3), u pple must put in effort in ur studies kae. dont slack!

Goal: by the end of this year, i want to be able to do a centre split (180 degrees kind), and i want toned stomach muscles, arms and legs.

btw, my voice now damn sexy okay. hurhur. talking about hyperbole and euphemism, shirley said that "estella is nice" is actually euphemistic and an understatement. wuahahaha! i totally agree la. lols shirley, thats the best comment i heard today.=D

Thoughts:
well, i think no matter what we do, theres bound to be pple who put u down (perhaps unknowingly) and make u feel unappreciated. i just want to say that, i feel we should live for ourselves not for others. i know comments always matter to us, though we claim we are not affected by them. but even if they do, why not just shrug it off, and be what u are? i mean, yah true. perhaps u dont look exactly "nice" with That haircut or with contacts. perhaps your friends just want u to look ur best and are giving their two-cents worth of opinion. however, if u dont feel urself if u try to change to suit ur friends' comments, den whats the point? ure not u anymore. we are unique and each have our own style. as long as we feel comfortable with ourselves, heck to what others say. for me, i always turn a deaf ear to the "not-so-nice" remarks. yes, sometimes i get affected. but i make sure i focus on the positive remarks and thats all. why? cos i feel comfy being what i am, and looking the way i am. u may tell me i look disgusting with long hair, or tomboyish with short hair (though no one has actually said so), but i dont care. i like having short hair, and so i will. seriously speaking, im not spared from all the teasing which can get (a little) hurtful at times. i feel that as long as we have confidence and believe in ourselves, telling ourselves that " we are beautiful no matter what they say", then no one can actually make u feel inferior or anything. afterall, the only reason why one would feel inferior to others is simply because they allow themselves into thinking so.

yeah, there are so many pretty girls out there. but guess what rrly separates the Beautiful from the Pretty? its our character, and how we treat others. look at all the Ah Lians. of cos, many of them are pretty girls though, often bimbotic and condescending to the non-Lians. they think that they are the prettiest in the school and that they rule. i just happened to be staring into thin air the other day, and was so wrongly accused of staring at one Lian, and when i looked away, i was even more wrongly accused of Diaoing her. what the. im sorry i had to generalise, but Ah Lians aint exactly my fav kind of people. i mean, their vocabulary is so limited that all they scold is F*ck u, what the f*ck and u get my drift. they will never be Beautiful people unless they start changing their attitude and the mindset that every other girl is evil and jealous of them. thus, to my frens, dont try to change who u are to suit others. we dont need another estella, han qingpei or mrs selva in the world. we need the unique u, not a clone of someone else as a fren.