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Monday, May 09, 2005

unrequitedlove

all of a sudden,
i feel void of emotions.
perhaps its cos of that incident.
I dont know why its so hard to explain
what i feel nowadays.

does anyone even understand?
no, im not depressed.
nor sad.
its just this weird and uneasy feeling
thats so overwhelming.
i need to let it all out,
scream my throat hoarse.
suddenly, i feel like going to the beach.
i miss it. =(

i know that perhaps i may have judged too quickly,
and let whatever negative emotions take over me.
i hate myself for that.
but i cant control it.
i know that we all have our good and bad sides.
and yes,
that includes me.
i really love all my frens,
and cannot afford to lose any of them.
but......

sometimes, i wish that if u are good,
u are good.
if u are bad,
den u are bad.
if there wasnt a grey area,
life may have been easier
as i will know who to love and who to hate.
easy isnt it?- love the good, hate the bad.

whatever happens,
happens for a reason.

~so agree with han, go read her blog. but i shant say which entry. heh.