Why?i promised i would work hard, wouldnt I? but *they just refuse to believe me.they are my parents, and all i wanted was to go out for one day this Holiday. (im being facetious here) WHY CANNOT?? *roars*I know i did badly, i know i totally deserve (!) to be grounded and all. But why arent they even sympathetic or understanding towards me??? All i asked for was a day's rest. thats all. Im human remember? i need a break too. i've already been trying so hard to understand chemistry and all that. But what do i get in return? Nothing. they dont even believe that im trying. at this point in time, im already on the verge of breaking down/ sobbing in front of the screen/ muttering a chainful of vulgarities (not that i know many to start with, but i can keep repeating right.) yes, choose any one of the above. but that said, i've already cried a dozen times (im exagerrating) because of what they (esp my dad) said. Yah yah, "no use crying over spilt milk". thats what he said. i quote his words" never work hard enough.Do badly alrd den come and cry. too late la! " yes, its too late. but why did i cry? i cried because i put in so much effort (esp for chem) and yet, i still failed. its the disappointment. i would not cry if i did not put in effort ok. if i didnt study, then really no point crying what. BUT I FREAKING DID STUDY. so why is he blaming me? people cannot means cannot larr. call me dumb, call me stupid, call me a single-brain-fold organism whose existence on earth is just to compete with others for oxygen. But DO NOT ACCUSE me of not studying! Because i did. anyway, back to what i was saying at first, they are very unreasonable. i said i would forgo the dinner treat by my dad on sunday if i was allowed to go out. but my mom said, "u cannot choose." Grr. like that also can? im their daughter, but they shouldnt just restrict my freedom like that right. i cant breathe, i feel so stifled. you smother me with your love.
