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Friday, July 01, 2005

one step too late.

If only you told me so, i would'nt have let go.

i have many things to say. i feel that this month has been a sad month, because my friends (many) have problems. i have come to this point where i dont know how to comfort anyone, or help them solve their problems. because i too have my own probs. but i think that my friends probs are much more serious and deserves more priority, so i never pay attention to my own. now i think smth dreadful has happened, but im still ignoring the problem. aiyah, what the vanadium loh. why must such stuff happen to the people around me? super sucky shit ok. it sucks to see your friends around you depressed, upset and crying. what can i do? Nothing. i can offer a hug, but my friends will need to sort out stuff themselves. there's nothing much i can do alrd. =(

aight, today got misunderstanding with ty. then dono larr. he seems so dulan that i dont even wanna try talking to him. sms? he probably wouldnt reply ba. still got someone/ i really cant read minds, and i suck at playing mind games, so dont make me guess how u feel cause i dont wish to guess anymore. Its really very oleum, the way you behave. I dont understand you at all. we can be laughing together for a day, and the very next day, u can just ignore me and pretend i never existed. is this some kind of game? if it is, i dont find it fun at all. so stop it. Im getting tired of quarelling with pple (sometimes its my fault i noe) and all the misunderstandings/ give me a break! (i dont mean to sound pissed here.) sorry that i am a bad tempered, evil, foul-mouthed person. but thats me what. what i meant as a joke, you take it in the wrong way, and turn around to reprimand me in a saintly manner. its not like you've known me for the first day right. i call my friends " bai chi", "shen jing bing" (you get my drift) almost every day. The majority of them do see that i meant it as a joke (thanks to literature which teaches tone and stuff=)) but why cant you? and its not even about you can? the person i called "baichi" wouldnt mind i know, cause he calls me "dong xi" and stuff. we are JOKING! i really meant it in a joking way, because that's basically what my friends say to me! -and vice versa- im sorry, what i said was not funny, but u didnt have to put me in a bad light right?

note: this entry must not be read in a kaobei voice, instead use a light-hearted tone.
if you read it the wrong way, please re-read. i dont wan pple to misunderstand me. i am Not. sad. *flashes teeth*

you are one step too late.