you know your stunning
absolutely stunning
and I'm running always running
and now I'm crying
you know only cause I'm caring
and if you were more daring maybe you'd stop staring
and come over and talk to me
and tell me about how you've been waiting patiently
and how you tried but I just turned away
and I'll say, "yeah well you know, I'm shy that way"
there's always too much talking
and I wanna just keep walking
and I keep staring, baby, keep staring
though I may not know the right things to say
I'll get it out to you one day
my worst day ever.
i guess u're here
cause u're expecting to read abt u.
well, i'm gonna give u the satisfaction this time.
screwed up for the editing.
my laptop hanged.
and i couldn't drag the clips.
but that's my own problem.
i don't like it when
you make my friend cry.
i've always respected you as a teacher
until you said that she deserved to cry.
until i saw her cry so badly.
i wasn't upset with you for saying all the things you said
to me for cam prac.
somehow, i understood.
i really don't know how to describe my feelings now.
i guess i never knew how much it'd hurt
until today.
bought tissues from the auntie at bukitbatok.
call it foresight perhaps.
they came into handy.
i've always wanted to help her
feels good.
everybody please buy from her.
=)
i always said i'd be strong
for the people who love me
because there're people who're worse off than me
because i have friends who care about me,
and i don't wanna make them worry.
i want to be the one who comforts them
not the other way round.
but i guess,
this time round i've failed terribly.
i don't give a damn about controlling my tears anymore.
my day sucked.
i wanna cry.
who are you to care?
you don't have to know what happened
nor do you have to show concern.
i know who will care,
and that's enough.
if you love me,
let me settle things on my own.
if you love me,
don't take away my right to listen to your problems
and comfort you.
i feel like the world's biggest stupidest fool.
obviously.
cause "stupidest fool" is a silly expression.
=//
i've never felt so alone.
never felt so heart-broken.
never felt so far from someone.
告诉我为什么让我心痛
this kept playing in my head while i searched for you frantically.
machiam drama serial.
i thought something happened to you.
well, for all the unhappiness...
at least you're fine =)
foolish. stupid. retarded.
to think all the thoughts that ran through my head.
to call xiang and alarm her too.
to walk around bb.
to sit around feeling frightened,
trying to contact you though
i know what i'm gonna get on the line.
smsing you and feeling like i'm talking to myself.
going home feeling as though i've lost my way.
thank you xiang dear. qixin dear. jarbears bear.
i saw yenzi the chiobu today on 176 =)
stubborn. unreasonable. egoistic.
i hate my bad points.
and i don't know what made me give in.
the fear that i'll lose you totally after tonight?
don't know.
don't need to know.
i wanted to talk to you so badly.
to know that things are fine.
and tt you didn't mean the things you just said in the sms.
oh well.
i didn't hear what i wanted to hear
but it's ok.
at the end of it all,
i guess all i ever wanted was to see you happy?
not trying to sound noble,
but i guess if you're happy,
then i wouldn't mind anything at all.
being apart from you,
taking a "break".
anything to see a happier u, i guess.
i don't know why i felt all those intense emotions
while talking to you.
i have no idea why i started crying.
i know it's dumb and retarded to cry on the phone
but i did.
it's uncontrollable.
Haha. come to think of it,
i was lame and retarded.
PUI!
estella is lousy.
crybaby LA!
next time i wanna cry,
i will chiong to the toilet to pee.
then no more tears for crying liao.
smart anot? (:
can't believe i can be lame even when im sad.
eh, this time please give face and laugh.
i tried ok.
feels like i'm walking in the rain,
i find myself trying to wash away the pain.
saying goodbye was the hardest.
but i did it somehow.
goodbye for now.
puffy eyes are pretty.
i don't wanna be pretty.
so i'm never gonna have puffy eyes again.
remember this date.
cause you'll never see me so down again.
=)
i've got you to make me feel stronger!
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you & i
we never had it easy baby
and everytime it feels like we're gonna make it
that's when it falls apart
but baby i'll take my chances with you.
every night i think about the mistakes i've made
i try to change my ways
and i don't mind all the little games we play
and all the foolish things you say.
