estella .

Sunday, November 26, 2006

here's smth from od.

and the rain it raineth everyday.

these scars they remind me never to go so far, never to let myself hurt again.
each time i try breaking down the wall i built up, i tell myself it's for you.
you never knew.
have you heard my heart's ache? have you felt my fear?
you never understood.
each time i come out of my shell,
trying to go close enough to you so that you know i love you,
you never held me tight.
you made me return to that shell of mine,
feeling even more vulnerable than before,
wondering, why the hell did i even try in the first place?
you don't know how much i long to be hugged by you,
to hear the words "it's okay i'm never gonna leave you, you can trust me with your heart."
you make me vulnerable.
you break me down.
i need you to be there,
i need you to tell me it's ok
and i can trust you with my heart.

but now you're breaking my heart.

i wonder how you can even imagine yourself getting a new girl,
and tell me i'll get a better guy.
when i can't even think of myself loving any other guy already.
me gonna become cold & hard-hearted bitch liao. ='(
我要谢谢你给的你拿走的一切
还爱你带一点恨,还要时间才能平衡